Tuesday, June 26, 2007 

Panthers: Williams Hoping for a Comeback after the Bye Week

The Carolina Panthers rookie DeAngelo Williams had a collision with Ted Washington injuring his right leg and his ankle on Oct. 8th game against Cleveland.

He has been diagnosed a high ankle sprain on both sides. Hi recovery has been very slow since he was injured but he came progressively. He practiced two of the three days last week. Unfortunately, he missed his third consecutive game in the loss to Dallas. Williams also participated in the practice both days this week. He now hopes to help the Panthers' struggling offense against Tampa Bay on Nov. 13th after the bye week.

The Panthers are 4-4 and desperately need all the help they can get at running back. They rank 25th in the league in rushing. DeShaun Foster is averaging 3.8 yards a carry, and he has only three runs of more than 13 yards and two touchdowns. While Williams has carried the ball 117 fewer times, he recorder not less than five carries of 13 and more yards, and one touchdown. Coach John Fox explained on Thursday that if Williams had not been injured the Panthers would have better records.

The former Memphis star was a first round pick in the draft of the Panthers. When he joined the club as the 27th signed player, he was wishing that he would eventually become the Panthers' No. 1 back. Even though the situation would prompt his wish to come true, Williams has developed a close relationship with running back Foster. Williams explained that Foster had been very supportive. Therefore he is just wishing to get back on the field with his partner as soon as possible.

Williams, who was the NCAA's all-time leader with 7,573 all-purpose yards, explaining that the hardest parts to deal with after being injured were the waiting and going through rehabilitation with the training staff. And even if he has been in rehab for only three weeks, it has been the longest period of his career. He has been wrongly diagnosed many times able to play before finally being allowed to get back on the field.

About the writer: Nigel Kerry is an American free lance writer born in Los Angeles, California. Kerry writes among others for Sportus.com - Sportsbook reviews, UsBookies.com - Sports Betting Online and Get-best-mortgage-loan.com - Mortgage lenders, get the best mortgage loan

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Shakespeare's Sonnet XVIII, Shall I Compare Thee to a Summer's Day?

Shakespeares sonnets require time and effort to appreciate. Understanding the numerous meanings of the lines, the crisply made references, the brilliance of the images, and the complexity of the sound, rhythm and structure of the verse demands attention and experience. The rewards are plentiful as few writers have ever approached the richness of Shakespeares prose and poetry.

Sonnet XVIII is also known as, Shall I Compare Thee to a Summers Day? It was written around 1599 and published with over 150 other sonnets in 1609 by Thomas Thorpe.

The first 126 sonnets are written to a youth, a boy, probably about 19, and perhaps specifically, William Herbert, Earl of Pembroke. His initials, W.H., appear in Thorpes dedication, and the first volume of Shakespeares plays, published by two of his fellow actors, Herminge and Condell, after Shakespeares death, was dedicated to William Herbert.

Sonnet XVIII is one of the most famous of all of Shakespeares sonnets. It is written in the sonnet style that Shakespeare preferred, 14 lines long with three quatrains (four rhymed lines) and a couplet (a pair of rhymed lines).

The Sonnet praises the youths beauty and disposition, comparing and contrasting the youth to a summer day. Then the sonnet immortalizes the youth through the eternal lines of the sonnet.

First Quatrain

The first line announces the comparison of the youth with a summer day. But the second line says that the youth is more perfect than a summer day. More temperate can be interpreted as more gentle. A summer day can have excesses such as rough winds. In Shakespeares time May was considered a summer month, a reference in the third line. The fourth line contains the metaphor that summer holds a lease on the year, but the lease is of a short duration.

Second Quatrain

This quatrain details how the summer can be imperfect, traits that the youth does not possess. The fifth line personifies the sun as the eye of heaven which is sometimes too scorchingly hot. On the other hand, his gold complexion, the face of the sun, can be dimmed by overcast and clouds. According to line 7, all beautiful things (fair means beautiful) sometimes decline from their state of beauty or perfection by chance accidents or by natural events. Untrimmed in line 8 means a lack of decoration and perhaps refers to every beauty from line 7.

Third Quatrain

This quatrain explains that the youth will possess eternal beauty and perfection. In line 10 owst is short for ownest, meaning possess. In other words, the youth shall not lose any of your beauty. Line 11 says that death will not conquer life and may refer to the shades of classical literature (Virgils Aeneid) who wander helplessly in the underworld. In line 12 eternal lines refers to the undying lines of the sonnet. Shakespeare realized that the sonnet is able to achieve an eternal status, and that one could be immortalized within it.

The Final Couplet

The couplet is easy to interpret. For as long as humans live and breathe on earth with eyes that can see, this is how long these verses will live. And these verses celebrate the youth and continually renew the youth's life.

Shall I Compare Thee is one of the most often quoted sonnets of Shakespeare. It is complex, yet elegant and memorable, and can be quoted by men and women alike. It has been enjoyed by all generations since Shakespeare and will continue to be enjoyed so long as men can breathe, or eyes can see.

Sonnet XVIII, Shall I Compare Thee?
By William Shakespeare

Shall I compare thee to a Summer's day?
Thou are more lovely and more temperate:
Rough winds do shake the darling buds of May,
And Summer's lease hath all too short a date:
Sometime too hot the eye of heaven shines,
And often is his gold complexion dimm'd;
And every fair from fair sometime declines,
By chance or nature's changing course untrimm'd:
But thy eternal Summer shall not fade
Nor lose possession of that fair thou ow'st;
Nor shall Death brag thou wander'st in his shade,
When in eternal lines to time thou grow'st:
So long as men can breathe, or eyes can see,
So long lives this, and this gives life to thee.

*****************************

Garry Gamber is a public school teacher. He writes articles about politics, real estate, health and nutrition, and internet dating services. He is the owner of http://www.Anchorage-Homes.com and http://www.TheDatingAdvisor.com.

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Summer Bulletin Board (Ways to Have Fun This Summer)

The declaration that summer is here still holds true today, for summer has not yet left, which is more than can be said about that lazy relative who is still on your couch (seriously, check it now). Many people have begun to have some fun this summer, either by vacationing away, vacationing at home, or by watching every television marathon that doesn't actually include people running real marathons (that'd be too ironic). Still, there are likely some who are in need of suggestions. Well, here I am to save the day, with a list of activities sure to stop your summer blues:

- In most areas, the summer implies that there will be some heat. And what better way to use that heat than to have ice races with friends! Simply go outside with a friend and at least two ice cubes of the same size. Then place your ice cubes on the ground or a flat surface and watch whose melts first. Yes, ice is exciting. Who would have thought that "fun" could be spelled with three letters?

- Nothing says summer like a talking Slip 'n' Slide. So why not... Oh never mind, if it talks, then it can tell you the rest...

- It's time to take the cover off of the grill, grab a bag of marshmallows and create your own Peeps. Yours will look nothing like the Easter variety at first, but you have a couple of months to work on it, assuming the fun doesn't overwhelm you...

- You don't need a swimming pool to swim. Simply put on your swimming clothes and wait outside on the street for an open invitation. Wearing scuba gear and goggles will increase the odds of this occurring, or -- at the very least -- will make you a greater target for water balloons, which is pretty much the same as swimming anyway...

- Do birds really need those baths set out for them? If the answer to this question is "no" -- and I am not really sure of this one -- then simply kick them out and take their spots. If anyone questions this activity, tell him/her it's a hockey game and you're playing left wing. If a hockey player asks you, tell him/her your game is for the birds, which is basically accurate, even though you kicked them out earlier...

- Lemonade stands are a hassle to create. So why not take over someone else's stand and negotiate that you will take a certain percentage of the profit, simply because you made the declaration to do so. To make this more fun, put your name on the sign and give all of your friends a free cup. If you are above the age of 30, quit your day job in order to run this business more successfully. Make sure your old high school classmates see your success. Send them e-cards if possible...

But I digress.

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Condoms- a Safe Way to Birth Control

Why do I need to use a condom?

Condoms are the only form of protection, which can both help to stop the transmission of sexually transmitted diseases (STDs) such as HIV and prevent pregnancy.

Choosing the right condom

A number of different types of condom are now available. What is generally called a condom is the 'male' condom, a sheath or covering which fits over a man's penis, and which is closed at one end. There is also now a female condom, or vaginal sheath, which is used by a woman to fit inside her vagina.

What are condoms made of?

Condoms are usually made of latex or polyurethane. If possible, you should use a latex condom, as they are slightly more reliable, and in most countries, they are most readily available. Latex condoms can only be used with water-based lubricants, not oil based lubricants such as Vaseline or cold cream as they break down the latex. A small number of people have an allergic reaction to latex and can use polyurethane condoms instead.

Polyurethane condoms are made out a type of plastic. They are thinner than latex condoms, and so they increase sensitivity and are more agreeable in feel and appearance to some users. They are more expensive than latex condoms and slightly less flexible so more lubrication may be needed. However both oil and water based lubricants can be used with them.

It is not clear whether latex or polyurethane condoms are stronger - there are studies suggesting that either is less likely to break. With both types however, the likelihood of breakages is very small if used correctly.

The lubrication on condoms also varies. Some condoms are not lubricated at all, some are lubricated with a silicone substance, and some condoms have a water-based lubricant. The lubrication on condoms aims to make the condom easier to put on and more comfortable to use. It can also help prevent condom breakage.

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Relationship: That Kiss

Three kisses a day make you happy and gay. Whether you kiss your partner on remembering a sweet moment, or some cute action it is a good excuse to come close to each other. Kissing is a very important ingredient in love making. So never stop kissing. Give your lover a morning kiss and take a goodnight kiss in return. However you do it make it sure to kiss each other to keep your love intact.

Kiss each other for healthy reasons. Kisses not only improve your love relationship but also keep you healthy. Experts say that kissing is a great cardiovascular activity and a process to lower high blood pressure, it also lowers cholesterol level. You better kiss each other for a romance as well as a health. They also say that since kisses puts to work over 30 muscles of your face your skin becomes smoother. So, all you women who want their skin smooth and glowing make sure to kiss your partners and give them a chance to kiss you.

A romantic kiss fulfills the day of the partners giving them complete assurance of love for each other. If you love your partners then kiss each other. Find moments to steal a kiss from your partner. Your partner will love you even more. Kiss each other to enhance your love life. A kiss is a starter to move you deep into feelings and feel the ecstasy of love, both emotional and physical love.

Every woman and man get motivated and empowered with the power of love, and kiss is one way to express your love. So always make sure to kiss your partner to feel motivated and loved and let your love life never fade.

Display your love with a kiss. Explain and make your spouse feel the extent of your feelings. Remember what has been said earlier, If you love somebody show it. Your love is doubled. Your partner too will react to the love expressed by you.

A kiss shows romance and intimacy, love and care, it all depends to whom you kiss and how you kiss. Kisses represent you feelings for the other person. A kiss is innocent, sweet, caring or hot. It all depends on your feelings and relationship. You kiss a person when you are attracted towards him or her. Your feelings are very well understood when you kiss your lover or anybody else such as your friend, children or parents. You can never forget the first kiss of your lover; it still can fill you up with deep emotions. Such is the power of a kiss.

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Positive Affirmations

Positive affirmations are those bits of positive thoughts, ideas, and statements, which are consistently repeated to yourself over a period of time, to implant them in your mind as a future source of inspiration for achieving personal growth and happiness. When you embed these positive thoughts into your subconscious mind, youll be guided and assisted by those bits of positive information, in a preset direction to achieve future goals. Most of us are born with negative attitudes and undesirable traits, and in the course of time, we may also develop additional negative aspects as a result of the environment around us. By using positive affirmations, you can get rid of those negative thoughts and perceptions and replace them with positive traits and other beneficial parameters.

Positive affirmations help us in many ways like:

1. We can be our own guide to instruct our mind and body to act in a predefined manner. This helps us to control our own destiny and life.
2. We can also break all obstacles and barriers, which are standing between us and our future goals.
3. By positive affirmations, we can easily focus on our goals and achieve the impossible.
4. Positive affirmations also make us better persons and empower us with a better personality, which is socially acceptable.
5. We can also overcome fear of failure; instead ensure mental toughness to achieve our goals.

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There are many methods by which we can write our own positive affirmations:

1. Always create a text of positive affirmations, which is directly related to your problems.
2. Use these scripts regularly to embed them into your subconscious mind. Preferably it must be a part of your life in the future.
3. Create a handy script note of all positive affirmations you want to talk to yourself. Carry that list with you wherever you go.
4. Start and end your day with those positive affirmations; it is always better to recite them whenever you find time.
5. Let your positive affirmations be simple and straight, with simple but powerful words.
6. Never use negative words in your positive affirmations.
7. Be personal and add a tinge of emotions to your positive affirmations. Being emotional helps you to achieve your goals in a quick time.
8. Visualize the outcome, as you recite your lines of positive affirmation. Act as if you have already reached your goals.

Whatever you do, never stop reciting those beautiful words of positive affirmations; this may help you even, if you do not have any goals to achieve in the future. There are countless ways of taking the control of your life, but positive affirmations are perhaps the most authentic method to create a good person out of you.

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You Don't Find All Drunks in the Gutter: The Story of a Functional Alcoholic!

Today, August 22, 2005, I am clean and sober for eight years which simply means today I am still an alcoholic and on this day I will choose not to pick up a drink. If you look at me today and compared my appearance to eight years ago you probably would not notice much difference (with the exception of a few more wrinkles). Back then I had a pretty high-powered job with a good salary and was working towards my masters degree. Today I work as an administrator for a church and I am developing a life and leadership coaching practice. I am not attending school I am teaching at a local college as an adjunct professor. My life is probably just as hectic now as it was eight years ago. So the question is besides not picking up a drink what is the difference between then and now?

First, it is only through a graceful and loving God, AA, meeting rooms in which other alcoholics openly shared their faith, strength and hope, and a sponsor who saw right through my charade that I can claim eight years of sobriety.

Second, back then I thought I had control of my life and now I realize I do not and everyday I try to remember that fact.

Finally, I have come to learn the difference between change and transition and that has and continues to bring a new perspective to my life.

When I first started to attend AA meetings I remember thinking that the stories these people were telling about their lives arent even close to the life I live. I only drink a little and I am very careful to monitor it so I can maintain my image in the community and the church I attend. These men and women are talking about horror stories in which they lost their jobs, families, savings and literally their self-respect. I would question my sponsor about the possibility that maybe I really wasnt a drunk. Maybe it is just in my head, that perhaps I could drink. He would just laugh and say the mere fact that you have to think about is evidence enough.

My sponsor used to ride in a Hells Angels motorcycle gang. He was one tough dude and probably the complete opposite of me or at least that is what I thought. I actually remember when I began looking for a sponsor God kept putting this man in front of me and I kept asking God to get him out of my way so I could find a sponsor like me. It is odd how I was looking at the outside appearance and God was looking at what was going on inside. I was working from my head (a dangerous place to be for an alcoholic) and God was working from my heart. As it turns out I was just like my sponsor and my sponsor was just like me, at least where it counts, in our hearts and souls.

For the most part of my life I really believed I was in control. Actually I suffered from an anxiety disorder and panic attacks so the only way I could live my life was to be in control, or at least I thought I was in control. Actually my behavior was more obsessive compulsive than orderly. My daughters used to twist the phone cord when they got home from school just so the could watch me faithfully go to the phone each day I got home from work and untangle it. I would vacuum the rugs and then not allow anyone to walk on them. I would comb the little fringes on the ends of the rug. My drinking was just as tidy. I would only drink at certain times and at certain places. Even though most weeknights I would only have one drink or think one drink is all I needed. If the liquor bottle would be only three quarters full I would get another one just in case I decided to drink more and maybe run out. If I was going out somewhere to eat, to a party, trips for work, or vacations I could not wait for the moment when I could justify having that first drink.

As a functional alcoholic it wasnt so much about how much I drank, I would do my best to control when I would take a drink or how much I thought I could safely drink and not get tagged as a drunk. Having an anxiety disorder that centered on low self-esteem and the fact I did not believe I was good enough as a person really helped to maintain my control. The issue with me was the fantasy or the delaying of that first drink. If I were traveling I would be thinking about when I got there and could have that first drink. If I were on a business trip my thoughts would be with once the business was conducted how great it will be to have that first drink in the bar. Many years ago I used to play softball and it got to the point I could not wait for the game to be over so I could go to the bar with the guys to drink. The issue was not just taking the drink but just as importantly, the permission to take the drink, albeit I set the rules in most cases. Unfortunately right before I went into AA I was giving myself more and more permission.

I was giving myself more permission because I was dealing with some changes in my life. Two months before I went into AA my mother passed away. My relationship with my father really was more strained then ever after my mother died. My wife had become ill and she began a month long stay in a hospital and as I had mentioned I was working towards my masters degree. Spiritually I felt dead even though I was faithfully attending church and teaching Sunday school as though nothing was wrong. That is the point; it was becoming tougher and tougher to keep putting up a front or pretending the world was a great place, only to go home and feel so depressed and sad about life that I wish I could just run away and hide.

So what did I learn in AA? Although today I am intellectually describing the process it is obviously the heart wrenching desire for sobriety and the feeling that you have no other place to turn that is at the core of recovery. For me recovery is about understanding the difference between change and transition. We say we want to change our lives and often we do just that. Perhaps we take a new job, a new spouse, a new place to live, a new car, or we want to change our drinking habits. William Bridges in his book, Transitions says, Our society confuses them (change and transition) constantly, leading us to imagine that transition is just another word for changeIn other words, change is situational. Transition, on the other hand is psychological. It is not those events, but rather the inner re - orientation and self - redefinition that you have to go through in order to incorporate any of those changes into your life. If you want to change your habit of drinking alcohol the solution is simple just dont pick up a drink. If you want to get into recovery from alcoholism than as the saying goes you have to deal with the ism part. That means a life transition and now we are talking about a change of heart not a change of thought.

Eight years into recovery I dont believe a day goes by that my head doesnt try to tell me it is OK to have a drink, you probably werent an alcoholic anyway, it is not like they found you lying in the gutter. There isnt a time when I am going to a party or getting ready for a vacation that I dont think what is the fun of going if I cant drink. But then there isnt a day that I wake up that I dont thank God for allowing me to be sober for just one more day. My father died just three years after my mother. I was a year into my recovery when I realized the problem I was having with him was not about him at all it was about me. When I looked at my dad I saw me and that is what got me so angry. That awareness gave me the two best years of my life with my dad. Now each day I see myself becoming more and more like my dad and I could not be more proud of that fact.

Years ago when the USA was seconds away from defeating the then USSR hockey team in the Olympics the announcer shouted, Do you believe in miracles? If you can find someone in recovery they will tell you all about their miracle. Remember God creates miracles and God resides in your heart, not your head. I believe in miracles, I am one!

By Robert Wummer
http://www.intersectionscoaching.com

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